MAJOR changes

 



Wellllll! It has officially been almost two months since I did my last blog post and I have yet to get better at posting consistently. Smh-- I'm sorry ya'll. I know I literally start out every single blog the same way "so much has happened over the last month", but ya'll. When I say so much has happened over the last month and a half-- I mean it! My life has been a series of ups and downs lately, but hey right now we're on the up and up so I'm happy about it. 

As ya'll can see from the title of this...there has been a lot of major changes happening in my life and one of those is the fact that I actually CHANGED MY MAJOR! I went back and forth in my mind of whether or not I was even going to tell anyone besides my family but I thought hey why not. For anyone close to me or just for anyone that knows me from IG--you're probably thinking "I thought she was a nursing major?!" and I have been up until this point. 

I'll take ya'll back in time with me to two months ago.. It was April and I was finishing up my freshman year. I hadn't been working, I had just been doing school for a few months and I was really wanting a job again because well....other than school I felt like a bum. Now don't get me wrong within the last year I have taken what will be 50 credit hours in a year because I have been doing year round school, so I'm definitely not a bum....butttt ya girl wanted a job. Sooooo I'm thinking to myself "where should I go work?!" I end up going to Dunkin Donuts, because well I mean I practically live there already. I go, get the job, and am all ready to go. My first week I work there everything is cool, I'm loving my job.....buttt.....I stay getting harassed by my coworker. Me being me I don't say anything to the managers, but the issue is when it hits 2 o'clock everyday and the managers LEAVE ME alone with the dude for the rest of my shift which is an extra 3 hours....so long story short.. lets just say I'm not there anymore. (I'm at Mi Pueblo again BTW.) By this point, you're probably thinking "what does this have to do with anything.. yeah you had it rough there but I mean???" well don't worry-- I'm getting there. By this point, I have single handedly watched every single person (well almost every single person) who I thought was my friend slowly disappear from my life. I remember a point last month where I literally was like "God, I have a good life, a good family, and nothing to complain about, but why does all this crazy stuff seem to happen to me??????" 

Well I believe that everything happens for a reason and I can definitely see how God has been with me every step of the way.

It wasn't until I lost friends, lost my job, and lost my mind it seems like that God was able to get me alone and finally talk some sense into me. 

I have always known that I wanted a career that was centered around helping people. Ask anyone that knows me-- actually KNOWS me-- and they will tell you that this is true. I have never cared about the money, the prestige, or anything else as long as I eventually had a career that HELPED people. So, I originally chose nursing, because I knew that nurses obviously helped people and I liked how nursing was a very selfless career... though this is all true, a part of me always had an inkling in the back of my mind that maybe that wasn't the route I was supposed to take. 

My entire life I have tried to help people..sometimes even to the point where I abandoned myself and my needs/wants. Anytime one of  my friends have problems (and even random strangers in public and random people on the internet) they often come to me, because they know that there is no judgement over here and their business isn't ever going to be spread around town... and I love that. I really do. That is why I really took the time out to say hey, "what does MADISON want to do? What is something that I could do and be absolutely fine even if I didn't get paid for it because I just genuinely loved it?" I thought to myself "What comes naturally and easy to me?" and that is simple-- it is and always has been helping others and being an advocate for people who otherwise wouldn't have a voice. 

Soooooooooooo, here is the part that ya'll are most likely here for lol.

I officially changed my major last week and I am now majoring in social work to become a LCSW or a licensed clinical social worker. My ultimate goal is to get my masters after receiving my BSW and eventually have my own private practice!! 

I am more excited than ever for my future. This will actually have me graduating in 2023 rather than 2024, because I have already taken so many credit hours and won't have to wait on getting into a program or anything like that. All the classes I have taken so far thankfully count and I will be able to actually get started on my classes for my major this fall. 

I say all this to say that if you are currently where I was two, three, four months ago-- confused and wondering what your purpose in life is-- sometimes God has to strip everything away from you that you think you need so that He can give you what He KNOWS you need. Most of the time- breakdowns come before your breakthrough and I know that is cliche, but it is so true. 

There is a very popular Bible verse that reads: "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight." (Proverbs 3:5-6) 

I love everything about this verse. It starts out with saying "Trust in the LORD" and it ends with "and He will make your paths straight." If you trust God even when it is hard-- He will bless you for it in the end. I also like how it says "In all your ways acknowledge Him." The key words being ACKNOWLEDGE HIM. 

So whenever you're happy....acknowledge Him. 
Whenever you're sad......
Whenever you're upset....
Whenever you are feeling lonely...
Whenever you are confused....

Acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.

I know that this blog was all over the place, but I wanted to be able to tell ya'll about my recent changes, while also telling ya'll that no matter what you're going through...I promise it gets better. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but it does get better. Give your problems to God....just talk to Him...because He is waiting on you to and He IS listening. 

If I can be here for ya'll in any way, please let me know and if ya'll have any prayer requests--DM me!!


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  1. Diane N.June 6, 2021 at 9:23 PM

    You go my child!!! As long as you always seek Gods will and follower Him you will do well and He will carry you when you need Him to.

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